• Feeling:  tired but ok
• Listening to: Nothing today
• Watching: Stumptown

I had good intentions of getting up early this morning and doing some work before everyone else was awake. Unfortunately I woke about 4am and at the same time F woke up and got into our bed. It was quite stuffy and I think that’s why I woke so I opened the window, but then the sound of water dripping on a roof kept me awake, plus having an extra body in the bed made it a bit crowded – so I ended up sleeping on the sofa instead. Unsuprisingly I wasn’t interested in getting up when my alarm went off, and I didn’t get up until D made tea.

I spent the rest of the day feeling pretty sleepy and F also seemed quite tired – we’re hoping that she manages to sleep well tonight in advance of her first day back at school tomorrow.

D went into work this morning – first time since March 16th! Of course it was nothing like going into work normally since it was really just her and a skeleton staff on the site. She was just there for a couple of hours and home again for lunch.

We had several powercuts today caused by our breaker tripping – but we aren’t quite sure of the cause. The trips didn’t seem to be linked to anything we were doing in the house (no particular surges in power use as far as we know) and I’m hoping it was just some external power surges and we just have a particularly sensitive breaker switch. I guess if this carries on we’ll need to get an electrician out.

The powercuts were quite frustrating as each time the power went down we lost wifi of course, and because I’m working on a desktop at the moment my computer rebooted each time – it made it difficult to get on with stuff and interrupted calls during the day.

Spoke to Mum this evening and made tentative plans to visit her at the weekend – as long as the weather is good so we can have a nice socially distanced visit – planning a walk and a picnic.

Tomorrow we’ll have all the excitement of F going to school – so I’d better get some sleep!

Stay safe, stay strong

• Feeling: a little frustrated but OK
• Listening to: Nothing today
• Watching: Parks and Rec

Monday again – felt quite tired today and apart from various work calls (which, to be fair, did eat up most of the day) I don’t feel I was very productive – which is a bit frustrating.

Adding to the frustration I spent the majority of the evening working out what materials I need for the decking project, created the order on a builders merchant only to have the transaction declined as possible fraud (my bank obviously sceptical I’d suddenly spend money on DIY materials!) and lost the whole order. Eventually I got everything ordered again and now its all on order and hopefully I’ll be taking delivery in a couple of weeks.

I did two bakes today – some sourdough in the morning (which we ate for lunch) and then some baguettes this evening.

After lunch F and B had their online Art. F struggles so much with this – she reminds me so much of myself when it comes to drawing – she gets so upset when she can’t draw what she sees in front of her. I was really proud of her this afternoon because she kept going (with a little persuasion and support from me and D), even though she was finding it really difficult.

Since Friday when F’s school let us know they were opening to year 4 this week, D and I have been talking about her going back to school – thinking about the pros and cons and trying to decide if we feel it makes sense for her to go into school. Although we have some concerns and aren’t completely sure its the right thing, while new cases and deaths are still going down, and without any cases at the school, it seems like the right thing for her to go back for now – and we can always decide to change our minds if the situation changes.

We talked to the school today which we found reassuring, and we talked to F and she is really pleased to be going back and can’t wait to see her teacher. With F going to school on Wednesday and D going into work tomorrow (just for a few hours and it won’t be at all like her usual work) there’s a lot of change this week.

Feel like I’ve not really spent much time with B today. He was struggling with his Spanish this morning and was a bit frustrated. I think F going back to school is likely to make him feel a bit down as well (although he may enjoy a bit of time with me to himself when F is in school and D at work on Thursday morning).

It’s been raining this evening and our new water butts have been doing their job – the first butt is already a quarter full and its still raining!

Stay safe, stay strong.

• Feeling: unsettled
• Listening to: Nothing really
• Watching: QI

Its been a hard week. Work has been constant for me, I’ve been tired and not really found the time for D, F and B like I should. F has found the last few days difficult and was worrying about me today.

Today we got notification that Fs school will be opening to her year group next week. This was rather unexpected and has left me a bit unsettled – I still feel rather wary about the rate at which various lockdown measures are being eased, and very unsure that having kids back into school is a good idea. On the other hand it might be good for F – and of course the kids have to go back to school at some point – maybe its better for that to happen for a short period now rather than wait until September. I really don’t know.

We haven’t talked to F about this yet but will need to before Monday – and I think she’ll be very eager to go back – although the reality of it might be a shock I guess.

I’m trying to look forward to the weekend and hope to do some work clearing the area where I’m planning to put the decking and actually ordering the materials to start work. We are also all looking forward to watching the new Artemis Fowl movie on Disney+ over the weekend (although the reviews aren’t great!)

I should say F had a really nice session with Liz this morning and she was laughing and chatting away – I love seeing her like that.

B cooked pizza for tea – perhaps not quite as successful as his last attempt (he tried, at my suggestion, a sourdough pizza recipe and I don’t think it was as successful).

Anyway, for tonight I’ve eaten too much chocolate and now I’ve poured myself a glass of brandy. Hopefully I’ll sleep well and tomorrow will be able to approach things with a clearer and less stressed mindset.

Stay safe, stay strong everyone x

• Feeling: tired out by work
• Listening to: Can’t even remember
• Watching: Bake off: The professionals

Woke up feeling tired and spent the day feeling tired – as yesterday I spent all day gearing up for the software release and doing testing – but by the end of the day – success! All the modules I work on have been successfully released \o/ (this is a huge team effort, not just me by any means).

Meanwhile the kids were a bit stir crazy today, especially F. We went out for a walk this afternoon which I think did us all good. Both kids had their music lessons (keyboard for B, drums for F) today and we got notification that the place where F usually has lessons (and I have singing lessons) will be reopening their physical premises from 1st July.

C dropped round a “SceneIt” Harry Potter game for the kids and we gavean escape room game we’d played in return. The SceneIt game comes with a DVD and you get puzzles on the screen as well as questions on cards. The Kids played that in the afternoon and enjoyed it (although they seemed to enjoy just solving the puzzles on screen rather than bothering with the rest of the game tbh).

Tomorrow looks like being another full day for work, so sleep now. Really looking forward to the weekend.

Stay safe, stay strong.

• Feeling: all worked out
• Listening to: The Magnetic Fields
• Watching: The Great British Sewing Bee

Woke around 7am and dozed dreaming that D was making me a cup of tea. Actually woke up properly about 8am to find that she had, and it had gone cold while I slept!

We had a Sainsbury delivery this morning (we’ve been able to get delivery slots regularly over the last few weeks) and a very cheery and chatty delivery man.

I’ve had my head down in work for most of the day – we’ve got a software release due at the end of this week, so things are a bit busy as I do testing and document any issues.

Ds work has been all about the electronic resources for the past few weeks, and continues to be of course, but they are currently working to make it possible for people to return books to the library from next week. Next week D will be going into work a couple of times to sort out any returns – which will be a bit different for us and her. I guess all signs that we are no longer in full lockdown, but at the same time things are not close to normal.

Both F and B got baking today. B made sourdough pizza dough which is now maturing in the fridge while F baked some ginger biscuits with help from D.

F also worked on building a photo album of “happy things” which she can look at when she gets sad or angry (entirely her own idea, but its really good to see her trying to solve problems in this way).

I had choir this evening but continued to be distracted by work, so although it was good to see and chat to people, my mind was really elsewhere. Just been work and work and work today.

Stay safe, stay strong

• Feeling: More focussed
• Listening to: The Magnetic Fields
• Watching: Giri/Haji

Woke early (around 6am). Dozed for a bit and eventually got up and made tea for me and D and sat in bed and drank my tea while D went out for a run. F woke early-ish as well and came and quizzed me on the animal kingdom before we both got up.

I started work early (around 8) and felt I had a really productive day (although I also got a bit caught up in a couple of challenges and carried on working into the evening (and I’ve just finished doing a bit more work now).

F seemed to have a very cheerful day. She got to have the bath she was so cruelly denied last night and got on with school work and her 11+ tutoring in the evening.

B has just had his head down getting on with things. I think he’s so self-reliant and not really given to complaining I don’t always pay attention to how the lockdown and isolation has been tough for him – D was pointing this out to me earlier – although he gets on with all his school work, he does find being tied to the laptop at the kitchen table for the majority of the day quite tough.

We’ve not had an update from Fs school yet, but it seems more and more likely that neither B nor F will be physically back in school before the summer.

After success with pizza last week B decided he wanted to cook pizza for tea again – and we aren’t going to say “no” to that – so tonight I helped B get some sourdough starter going and tomorrow we’ll get some dough made up (the recipe from Rosehill Sourdough recommends letting the dough rest in the fridge for 3 days to get the best results!)

Excitingly we had the first strawberry of the year from the garden today – which B and F shared.

I did some planning for my decking project as well – now I just need to find the courage to bite the bullet and order the timber and other materials so I can actually make a start. I’m a bit intimidated, but the idea that we could eat out on a deck over the rest of the summer is a definite motivator.

Stay safe, stay strong.

• Feeling: Jittery
• Listening to: Nothing today
• Watching: Stumptown

Despite the relaxing weekend, spent today feeling jittery and slightly stressed, although not quite sure why – think just work stuff playing on my mind.

I spent most of the day on work calls, and everyone else in the house was getting on with work as well. F & B did school work in the morning and in the afternoon made bugs from pebbles in their online art class, and both had online maths/english sessions. D was working hard as well.

F got a certificate for “excellent home learning” from school which was really nice and she was having a really nice day until bedtime when we said it was too late for a bath and she’d have to wait until tomorrow which led to a huge meltdown.

I’m thinking about building a small deck at the back of the house (this was an idea that I had a few years ago and never followed up) – so started to look at measurements and what I’d need – it all looks do-able, but I need to do a bit more planning and see if I can get all the materials I’d need.

Stay safe, stay strong.